diagnosis and recent life

i was diagnosed with ADHD, mainly the inatentive type with 'some hyperactive symptoms' according to the assessment lady.. ha.

the day finally arrived on wednesday. i say finally, but it arrived so fast that i still don't think that i've really processed this... or maybe i have and i'm just not shocked at all because it genuinely explains all of the problems i've been dealing with for a substantial amount of time now.
the official letter is still on the way to me, so i don't have the specifics or anything like that yet... just the fact that i have it. :T hm.
i'm also starting medication soon, so that's a plus side.
it was my friend that said to me one day earlier this year that i might actually have adhd (who is also diagnosed), and ran me through all the symptoms and stuff to see if i related... and i did, and from then they just said to go and get tested honestly. so i did, and here i am! this all started in march, by the way, so you can only guess how stunlocked i am at how fast this happened.
i don't really feel a particular way about this, and i'm not sure why, but it's definitely nice to know now that it wasn't just... me the entire time, and it was this that had been genuinely crippling me hard for quite some time. i'm curious to see if it's going to help me with the issues i have, and if so... i might become the happiest person ever, seriously.

onto other things... life!!!
i say this like i've been doing anything worth noting other than the usual, which i haven't, but i have started and stuck with one thing recently at least... which has been streaming and creating content! i guess! o_O
my mum and friends has been getting onto me to stream for years since i've had the setup to do so for a while but never did, i always overthunk it and stuff.. but i finally started maybe 2... 3 weeks ago? and it's going okay! obviously slow growth, and i'm unforutantely the type that doesn't really like to reach out to friends to join the stream,,, i feel like people have things to do other than sit and watch me lol.
BUT!!! i have at least been making content, which is something that lowkey comes easy to me because i was an editor previously, and used to even edit my own youtube videos like 10+ years ago when i was younger haha... so it's not something i wasn't able to pick up and grasp with haste, actually.
and i also convinced myself to turn on my facecam, which is a huge fucking step for me since i don't even like taking selfies, but i was genuinely deliberating because i have a pretty good webcam, and never ever used it... so i might as well. and i thought to myself that i probably wouldn't have the money for a proper vtuber model or something so i opted for this instead.
but i will say, i swap between a pngtuber that i made on picrew, and my face when i feel like it, so it's not completely set in stone or anything... and keeps me comfortable without feeling a bit scared.
oh and i got a new mouse on wednesday too.. praise god. and may god strike down logitech for making my mouse double click on THREE seperate buttons before. i'm now using a razer mouse for the first time, and it feels pretty good... fingers crossed!

oh i also found 2 songs i really like too in the past like 3 days... one called "Man Ain't Me" by Soulidified and "Met my match" by Say Now. pretty good songs, and it's lowkey refreshing to see a boygroup that isn't within the realms of kpop or jpop.

i'm gonna end this off by shamelessly plugging my channels because hitting affilliate on twitch would be very cool, and i'm trying my best to make stuff! :3 i plan on streaming a lot of the games in my log soon, hopefully when this TERRIBLE league addiction finally wears off... i.e. finishing ocarina of time -> majoras mask, finishing sr2+3 again, bayo1,2+3 and other stuff!!

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